January 28, 2011

I woke up today in a mood to write. I have less than six months before I leave. I am absolutely dreading it, while at the same time, I'm so excited I can barely contain it. I am going to get to be a MEDIC! But I find it impossible to think of leaving Derek and Ryan and my friends. Erik gets deployed May first. I am dreading that day and he is excited. Go figure. We're taking him to Florida for his 21st birthday. I can't wait to be back on the beach. Derek and I have our own apartment! We're moving stuff in all this week. I can't believe how far we've come in just six months. It feels like we've been together forever. We still haven't fought at all. He is so much more than I deserve. Sonic still sucks. Only five months left until I can quit. Haha. There's a lot going on right now, and at the same time, nothing is really changing. I feel like I need to get back in touch with a few friends. I get in these moods where I just don't want to be around people. I haven't seen Meme or Jamie in forever. And there's a few more that I keep promising to see. I started writing letters in a notebook to Derek for after I leave. I just know what it's like to be the one here, waiting. I've been there. I want to do everything I can to make it easier on him. The first few days are the worst, especially because you can't send or receive any letters. So I'll leave him a notebook full of letters to have until we can start writing each other. That's it for now, really. I'll write again soon.