I am fast approaching my last month as a civilian. I am fast approaching having to say goodbye to everything and everyone I know and start over somewhere new. Petrified is the only word I can think of when people ask me how I feel about all of this. I've spent the past year being so excited for all of this to happen and now that I'm getting ready to get everything I've wanted, I'm terrified. What if I am not good at my job? What if I can't save lives? What if Derek and I can't make it through this? I'm terrified of every aspect. But I am trying to trust in the things I do know. I have spent years preparing for this job. I will love what I'm doing. I will do my best to take care of people. Derek and I are married. We love each other. And we will try as hard as we ever have at this.
